One word definition of goings on the last two weeks in my world: HUH??
1. Why am I a racist if I disagree with policy? Not liking national health care makes me a racist? Not liking the banking bail out makes me a racist? Not liking the gun control plays going on in Washington right now makes me a racist? Hmmmmm. So since I've disagreed with policies of every president we've had since I was old enough to vote and pay attention.....
What exactly does that make me??? It must be something extra awful.
2. Why do so many women snub the beautiful women? Why do you refuse to sit next to them? Why do you invite them to things...and then leave them standing there with no one to talk to? Are you judging them by their looks or by their hearts? Why? Do you have any idea the hurt and confusion you leave these women in? Some of them are the best friends and with biggest hearts you'll ever meet. You have no idea what you are missing just because you assume they have it better than you or have it all or whatever it is that makes you move chairs to avoid sitting next to them. (If you've never met me let me inform you that I am not one of the beautiful people -- I just play one on tv.)
3. How do you handle feeling like the biggest parenting fail on the face of the earth? And how do you get through to a child you have actively taught...... and watch them reject that teaching and embarrass you to no end in company? You know they know better. You had a special talk with them to ensure they had the skill set necessary. They are a teen, not a child.
4. How do you handle a child that refuses to take responsibility for their own actions? Without killing them.
5. Why do some people get hit with tragedy after tragedy? Not tragedy caused by their own actions - random things that could not be avoided. How does God know who is that strong? I understand the need for growth in our lives.... but some people don't even get a chance to catch their breath! Why?
6. Why is my family so blessed? I know so many people that are such better Christians or just better people than we are that have it so much harder. Why has 90% of our lives as married adults been so easy?
7. How do you show support and heartfelt empathy to a friend so far away? How can you help when you are thousands of miles away?
And:
8. Where the heck did the summer go????
1.)Whatever you are, I am that, too. Let me know when you figure it out.
ReplyDelete2.)Insecurity. Which is the same reason so many people do hurtful things for any reason.
3.)It doesn't make you a failure as a parent, it makes her a separate person with her own choices. That and she is not grown yet. You still have a few years to fix this. Plus, I was there, it wasn't that bad.
4.)The same way God handles us when we do the same thing, consistently and with love. Sometimes that love comes with consequences and sometimes it comes with grace. Good luck knowing which one to pair it with.
5.)When you figure it out, let me know. However, I know for me it is not so much about having strength as people think. It is more about needing to be taught the love of God and needing to learn to hold tight to Him, learning that He will never leave and that His promises are true. Some people just learn those lessons easier than me, I guess.
6.)That is a question I have asked before and the answer blows me away. Simply stated, why not? Breathe in those blessings and do what you are so good at, use them to bless others.
7.)Just keep doing what you do. You are good at this one and could give lessons to others about how to do it.
8.)I don't know, but I am glad it is almost over. I am tired of the heat and would love to get back to the routine and every day activities that school requires.
I think I will just join you in the "huh". There are so many questions I have quit looking for answers to. But I completely trust that when I get to heaven, if I still care at that point in time, (which I doubt) God will answer them.
ReplyDeleteIn the meantime, breath in, breath out, and figure out one thing at a time. I am working really hard at NOT looking too far ahead. RIght this minute is what I am promised, so it is what I will focus on. Live it fully, and fully for His glory. What else is there?
I have no answers to any of these questions. In my world, it seems like the beautiful women have all the friends, and I feel like a big dork. But perhaps that is only my perception because I'm insecure.
ReplyDeleteAlso, I happen to know that you're a great parent, and teenagers are teenagers. It's not your fault (though I understand being frustrated with a child to no end. I live with Cakes after all :)
1.)Whatever you are, I am that, too. Let me know when you figure it out.
ReplyDelete2.)Insecurity. Which is the same reason so many people do hurtful things for any reason.
3.)It doesn't make you a failure as a parent, it makes her a separate person with her own choices. That and she is not grown yet. You still have a few years to fix this. Plus, I was there, it wasn't that bad.
4.)The same way God handles us when we do the same thing, consistently and with love. Sometimes that love comes with consequences and sometimes it comes with grace. Good luck knowing which one to pair it with.
5.)When you figure it out, let me know. However, I know for me it is not so much about having strength as people think. It is more about needing to be taught the love of God and needing to learn to hold tight to Him, learning that He will never leave and that His promises are true. Some people just learn those lessons easier than me, I guess.
6.)That is a question I have asked before and the answer blows me away. Simply stated, why not? Breathe in those blessings and do what you are so good at, use them to bless others.
7.)Just keep doing what you do. You are good at this one and could give lessons to others about how to do it.
8.)I don't know, but I am glad it is almost over. I am tired of the heat and would love to get back to the routine and every day activities that school requires.