I know God has my back.
I know God has a plan for us.
I know God will provide.
I know we belong to God.
I know all things are for good.
I truly KNOW all these things.
So how come I'm stressing over the sell of the house?
I'm not worried about where we will live when we get to Ohio.
I'm not worried about getting the girls into school - even if its late - DON'T CARE.
I'm not worried about all the work it takes to set up house.
I'm not worried about packing out of here.
But I'm worried about selling the house.
My parents were military. I've been down this road before. It's not fun. It's downright ugly. It can be very very bad....even though in the END all will be fine.
And I don't want to live like that.
We NEVER would have bought a house if we hadn't been guaranteed a four year controlled tour. Nobody buys a house when they are only going to be somewhere 2 years....in a bad economy.
So, with all that I KNOW about God, how come I can't relax?
I got scolded for being so visibly stressed. By a good person with only my best interest at heart. Someone who knows I KNOW its all in God's timing.
So I visibly relaxed. See, I'm fine. It's all good.
Until my hair started falling out by the handfuls. And I got a cold-sore on my mouth. And I feel sick to my stomach so much of the time.
Apparently it doesn't matter what I KNOW. My body has high-jacked my mind.
And I thought I had myself fooled.
So I'm asking you....how do you let it go....when you truly KNOW its all going to be okay...but your body doesn't agree?