Thursday, May 22, 2014

Its Dark

Its dark again
Another night
of trying to sleep

by myself

There are shadows
but shadows are good
They hide the empty spaces
the empty side
the cold side

I reach a hand over
I can almost pretend
to feel the depression
where you should lay

The spot that should be warm
The skin I should be able to touch
and smell
and taste

I can almost pretend
that your dogs breathing
is really yours
but not really
although you do both snore

but the room is empty
of the presence
that should be there
night after night

new couples anticipate
the nights together
falling asleep in each others arms
feeling the breath of the one they love
on the back of their neck.

The satisfaction that is soul deep
that touches something so deep inside
it cant be explained
it can only be felt

It leaves you empty
when its missing

And they don't even have to be gone.

1 comment:

  1. Praying for you my friend. I know that your whole marriage you expected these lonely nights would end once he retired from the military. The reasons are different now, but the loneliness is the same. You know where I am if you need me. Hugs.